Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Hold Their Shield

As I tucked my 7 year old lil' warrior into bed, the words "Mommy, I'm sorry if I didn't please you today" spilled from his heart. His words stung and caught my attention. After sleep claimed his night, I crept into his room to battle.

As I passionately prayed for each child, a fresh mommy mandate came to mind. As children, they stand in the midst of a fierce spiritual battle. They have armor, still learning to use it, trusting for me to teach them. As mommy, God asks me to hold their shields, protecting them from the flaming arrows of the enemy. Or maybe, tuck them under mine.

My heart broke as I saw a picture of my Joshua with arrows of defeat piercing his little body. My heart sank to despair as I realized some of the arrows I shot through my words and actions. I cannot adequately describe the anguish of my soul. As I cried out to my Abba for forgiveness, His healing balm of joy erased the pain.

Forgiven, I stood to wage war and remove some arrows. I lost track of time as I proclaimed God's truth over my wounded son. The joy of victory filled the room.

This mommy warrior asked my King to renew my call, refire my passion, and refresh my spirit. In His presence, I surrendered it all, my hopes, dreams, and wants. Filled with a fresh mommy anointing I resolved to spend all that I am to equip my children for their role in His kingdom.

Today, my morning began with asking forgiveness from my lil' warriors and marching forward, victoriously!


Unknown said...

You are such a beautiful writer, Mommy and friend! I'm so blessed by every word you share and your heart so willing to humbly lay it all down!

Hugs and praying blessings over you!

Lots of love!

Lori at JOY Unspeakable said...

Girl, you are deep!

It is so true that we must equip our children adequately...and I'm afraid it's a tougher job now than ever before.

Kimberly said...

i love it! check out my blog for today...i nominated you for an award

Warren Baldwin said...

Hi, I linked here from Girl in a Glass House. Hope you don't mind visitors! I liked your post and it was moving. I posted one last night on forgiveness entitled, "East From West" based on a Psalm. It touches some of the same ideas as yours and I thought you might enjoy reading it. If you go to my blog list it is under "Bible Fountain."

You are a good writer.


Alison said...

I really enjoy your writing, Sarah Dawn. Thanks for the great illustration... a great picture of true life.

Rachael said...

Great post! I look forward to reading more of your blog! Where are you guys missionaries? After our adoption is complete, we are planning on overseas ministry ourselves! I'd love to hear more about what you are doing!

Sandee said...

Ah, Sarah...awesome sharing....a mommy after my own heart. I too have felt to pray more and more for my children.....

Sharon Sloan said...

Oh thank you for your honest heart and for encouraing me as a mom to go spend more time on my knees next to their beds as they rest their sweet little heads. They are unaware but changed forever by that precious time with our Heavenly Father.

Adeye said...

How absolutely wonderful to meet you here :) Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog, I so appreciate you stopping by.
Wow, I just had a good read through your blog. You are SUCH a woman after God's own heart. What a joy that I get to journey with you from here on.
You have a gorgeous family.
Love and hugs

Jen said...

The best preparation we can give our children is to pray for them. What a beautiful picture of your prayer battle! I am so enjoying your writing :-)

Did I tell you I have a Ryan and Josh too?

Sarah said...

Can I just take a moment and give everyone a big HUG! Goodness, this blog has already blessed our lives, allowing this mommy to connect with heart friends. Your encouragement in this new adventure, truly brings a smile to my heart. Thank you, to everyone who is splashin' around with me.

Hugs from Costa Rica,
Sarah Dawn

Rachael said...

Where are you in the process with AAI? Age/gender request? I am in a small yahoo group with AAI people in the same stage of the process if you'd like to join. Let me know your email if you want to and I'll have them send you an invite. :)

Anonymous said...

Oh my...I have stood in a very similar place sister. There were times when I wanted to wake one of my children from their slumber to hold them and take out those arrows that I had shot that day into their little hearts. Breakfast couldn't come soon enough!

God gives us gentle hearts when we seek Him.You are a blessing to your son...never doubt that!