Saturday, June 27, 2009

Too Much and Not Enough


"May God Himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it."
- 1 Thess 5:23-24

Past failures scream, mocking my today. Sarah, you are too much, too much work, too much emotion, too much for anyone.

The fiery darts singe my soul.

You are not enough, not good enough, not pretty enough, not enough for anyone.

In my confusion and pain, where can I turn? The lies hid my heart from everyone. I close my eyes, silence my thoughts, and cry out from my being. With a childlike hesitancy, I ask my Abba Father, crawling in His arms "Am I enough for you?"

I cringe expecting the worst, the lie is deep. With soothing words of healing oil, my Abba pours his love into my heart, dripping of my true value and worth. Tears of joy wash away the pain streaks on the window of my life.

He doesn't stop there. He has some roots to remove. Holding my hand and my heart, He leads me to where the seeds were planted and where I first believed them. In that fateful moment, He spoke His words of truth, dispelling the lie.

He delights in me. On the day I was born, He rejoiced over me, singing His song of love and He has never stopped. I am His Sarah Dawn. I am never too much. I am just enough.

Since that day, I am free. The lie is gone. The voice of truth has spoken over my life. I will choose to listen and believe. I can hear the sweet melody as He sings even now.


48 comments:

Melissa said...

Amazing! Your beautiful picture and touching story...you brought tears and you touched my heart. Whata blessing you are to so many people.

Erica said...

first of all thanks for stopping by my page and you're encouraging words!

second this is beautiful! what a great picture of God's grace and love! so uplifting :)

third i read the post before this and it just tugged at my heartstrings. my husband and i want to adopt as well so it's always something i love to talk about. did you know that if 6.5% of professed christians worldwide would adopt 1 kid there would be no more orphans? i wrote a blog about it, if you click in my sidebar on "something my heart beats for" (or something liek that LOL) that's where it is!

mom-2-4 said...

Sarah Dawn,
I just feel speechless right now. Your post was so touching, so honest, so moving to read. It truly makes me remember what an awesome God we serve! He is so gracious, so merciful, so loving to us.
Thank you so much for sharing, you are such a blessing!
Julianne :)

God, My Savior Forever! said...

Hi! I have an award for you over at my blog! Hope you like it:D

Blessed Mom of 8 said...

Now that was like a wave not a splash and one I am receiving with you!

Oh how I love to sit at His feet with you and rejoice in His love for us!

Oh how I love to sing of His goodness with you and worship Him together!

You are such a perfect gift to me and I can't thank our Daddy enough for you!

Hugs - I miss you!
Jill

Joanne Sher said...

Beautiful and poignant. What an incredible reminder.

Debbie said...

Oh Sarah Dawn, you are free in Christ! Amen and amen to that. Your writings are so inspiring. The words we speak to ourselves and those others have said to us can be so powerful. And yet ...if we choose to look at what God says we are, we are blessed. You know where to look and find the truth ...in His Word. What a wonderful reminder.

Still Learning said...

That was really beautiful. Something we all need to remember for sure.

Jenn

Sharon@JoyInTheTruth said...

Beautiful.

Mare said...

Oh my goodness, that was absolutely beautiful. You post really spoke to me, for that is exactly how I was feeling yesterday.

Painful thoughts flooded my mind all day, filling me with feelings of unworthiness. I found my self sobbing, wondering if He still loves me in all my brokenness.

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit” Psalm 34:18

Oh, what would I do without the love of my Father.

Again, thank you for a beautiful post.

Mich said...

Your words spoke to my heart.

thank you for sharing.

Daveda said...

Beautiful, Sarah Dawn, and I love your name! I love that you shared our God is a God of freedom. He speaks truth to the lies of the enemy and sets us free!

Hope said...

Dearest Sarah Dawn,

This is precious and sweet of you to share. I think it is very helpful because I think we all have a time when we felt the same way…I know I have.

It is also a beautiful photo. I am glad you decided to play along.

♥Hope

Hope said...

Oh yes, and everytime I see your smile, I think you are beautiful!

♥Hope

Shonni said...

Thank you so much for that. It was beautiful! I often believe those lies also!
Thanks again,

Joyful mom said...

Oh my goodness, how absolutely beautifully written, friend. Stunning words--from your heart to mine.

YES--You are absolutely enough! You are beautiful inside and out. His splendor is all over you, friend.

Debbie said...

Just what I need to read this Monday morning... thank you so much! Have a wonderful day.

Andrea said...

I needed to read that this morning. Thank you for sharing your heart, and touching mine.

Lissa said...

THIS is a beautiful post! Thank you so much for these precious words!

Yolanda said...

Sarah Dawn,

A TRULY BEAUTIFUL SPLASHIN' GLORY to me and onto me and I'm getting drenched!

Lovingly,
Yolanda

Connie Arnold said...

What a beautiful blessing your post is, Sarah, washing across the soul with peace and joy! Thank you for sharing the blessing.

Heart2Heart said...

Sarah Dawn,

This is so true each and every day. The enemy tries every technique to try and make us doubt ourselves and our failures in life. Thank God that He washes us clean!

Love and Hugs ~ Kat

christy rose said...

That is a beautiful picture! And story! You are an inspiration Sarah Dawn!

3 Blessings said...

Your photo, your words and HIS truth are so beautiful. Thank you!
Amy

Mocha Momma said...

Thanks so much for stopping by and seeing my kids pictured after receiving awards for a year of hard and worthwhile work in God's Word.

Your 6th picture is really something! And your message was so important for all to hear. Thanks for sharing your heart.

Have a good week,
Nannette from Life: Be In It

Peter Stone said...

Thanks for this encouraging post. So much negativity, so much pressure from the media, so many things to make us think we have no value. I only accepted my true value when I learnt to view myself through Jesus' eyes. That He treasures me and delights over me with singing simply blows me away.

God bless :)

Mama Hen said...

Hi Sarah Dawn! I am so glad you stopped by my blog. Please look around, I would love to have you visit. I am going to follow you also and will spend time (maybe later tonight when the kids are in bed) looking at your site. We are in the process of adopting a little girl domesticaly and are excited and scared at the same time. God is going to have to provide all the funds for this and that can be a be faith-building time!

About the verse you quoted above. Isn't is great to know that GOD HIMSELF is the one doing the santifying. Just as He was the one doing the saving He also santifies. He cares about the process and about us as we go through it!

girlinaglasshouse said...

Sarah

Your blog blesses me three ways. From a writers persepctive I delight in the gift of words...beautiful! From a "Glass House" perspective, I delight in your transparency. And from a believers persepctive, I delight in the truths you extract from your own living.

Thank you so much for being faithful to write what God puts on yoru heart.

Jenn said...

Simply beautiful! Just what I needed to hear. You bless me with your words :)

valerie lynn said...

What a beautiful testimony! How awesome is our God! How awesome is His Word and His promises.

God bless you for visiting my blog.

I have a new friend and sister in Christ! YAY!!

Much love to you my new friend and sister!

Jill said...

Thanks for visiting my blog! MamaHen was just telling me about you last night. She said ya'll had chatted a bit about adoption. Your blog is beautiful - I'm a lover of rain so I love all the water references!

Live4him said...

Thank you for dropping by my blog =) In looking at your blog, i'm glad to say your post touched me and made my day brighter so i must say thank you. Also a very beautiful picture. God bless you.

mom-2-4 said...

The Lord put you on my heart and I just wanted to stop by and say "hi". You've been such a blessing to me, your posts are so uplifting, and so often what I need to hear.
Blessings to you this week,
Julianne :)

Marrie said...

Sarah, you have been on my heart the last couple of days...God is doing something in your life and in mine as well. Together we will walk in freedom to just be His daugthers. You know I love you!! Mar

Mich said...

I nominated you for an award. I understand if you don't have the time to "accept" it. I just wanted you to know that your faith and what you are doing in service to the Lord inspires me every day! Thank you for splashing me with joy!

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for your honesty. I needed so much to hear the things you shared. It was such an encouragement to my heart. Blessings!

Joye @ The Joyeful Journey said...

And that is GLORY! In WAVES! The glory of the SON that will always be ENOUGH!

Your heart is so beautiful, Sarah Dawn!

Angela said...

Tears welled up in my eyes as I read this. ((hugs)) God KNEW I needed this greatly for today....one of those days where lies are yelling at me....I'm plugging my ears!!

He & Me + 3 said...

That was beautiful! It is so good to know that we are enough for Him...& that He is our everything!
Thank you for sharing this post it was so touching!

Latte Lady said...

You are a deep thinker and writer. Have you ever thought of authoring an inspirational journal? I bet it would be beautiful!

I had a moment like that once. About 8 or 9 years ago I was doing dishes and could see the devil's finger pointing in my face accusing me of all of the things I had done wrong in my past. I recognized it as the accusor and told him how it was going to be from now on!

Thank you for stopping by my blog. I see that we are in a similar "pond". I am going to follow your blog. I can't wait to splash around here. May I ask how you found me?

I am going to put a link to you in my post.

Blessings to you!

Latte Lady said...

Ok! It's done! (I hope you don't mind...)

I put your little button in my post. I hope others are inspired by your post too.

Here it is: http://homeward4.blogspot.com/2009/07/grace-flows-down.html

Be blessed!

Melissa said...

You have a beautiful blog. I'm glad you left a comment on my blog today so that I could find yours. I can't wait to come back and read more of what you write. For now, I must get ready for the big party tomorrow for my son! Thanks for stopping by my blog as well.
Melissa @ My 2 Blessings

Hope said...

Dearest Sarah Dawn,

You were so kind to stop by my daughter’s blog and say hello. She was greatly encouraged to see your comment and so was I!

Thank you!
♥Hope

Bevy said...

WOW! And a hummingbird just flew by. ;) Thanks so much for sharing what the Lord rescued you from. I always brace meself too when I ask that question ... okay Lord "give it to me straight" I can handle it - so I think!
Do you know Ruth Earnshaw? She's on Facebook and is involved in the 1:21 ministry. :)
God bless and thanks so much for stopping by my blog and following. :) I'm going to follow you too! ;)

E @ Scottsville said...

What a fabulous post!

Thank you for sharing that with us. =0)

Jo Princess Warrior said...

wow! I feel the same way as Jesus recently saved me from my depression. I am walking in a freedom that I have never known before. xo

Denise said...

Your blog is such a blessing.

amy lineburg said...

Amen! I can totally relate and especially appreciated how you described that God doesn't just want to wipe away the pain streaks, but uproot the lies! What a merciful, fiery Lion we serve!! His gentle caress yet fierce love!!

Hugs to you dear sister!!